When I was young my family used to joke that I would walk into a room with a "puss" on my face just like my mom. As I got older I was called Drama Queen. I've been accused of making mountains out of mole hills more often than not. And while I'll admit I do get emotional about certain situations and sometimes more emotional than I'd like, does that really qualify me to be labeled? I recognize that I am an emotional person. In fact my emotions are what drive me to do or not do many things. I'm also an emotional eater which is why I have a weight problem. But lately I've been thinking about this emotional label and I'm not liking it so much. Felling convicted, I need to do something about it.
Although I do not consider myself to be a Drama Queen (believe me I've met a few and I'm no Drama Queen) my emotions do seem to be getting in the way of my pursuit of becoming the woman God has called me to be. Anger, sadness, frustration, disappointment, stress, loneliness, these emotions drive my bottom onto the couch, tell me to give into my temptation to eat chocolate, give up on my dreams, wallow, and feel sorry for myself. They keep me self focused and selfish.
Joy, peace, happiness, and excitement, they keep me motivated, driven to do the work the Lord has called me to do. So the question is how do I stop being a Drama Momma and become the joyful, peaceful, happy, person God is calling me to be?
It occurred to me that on Sunday's when I leave church I'm recharged and useful to God. I'm gentler in nature and generally more happy. Yes the message does play a big part in that, but moreover, it's the praise and worship. So I discovered that the problem is a clear and present deficit of praise. There has been a significant lack of it in my life as of late, and I am noticing the increasing importance that praise plays in living a joy-filled life.
"Hear, O Lord, and answer me, for I am poor and needy. Guard my life, for I am devoted to you. You are my God; save your servant who trusts in you. Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your servant, for to you, O Lord I lift up my soul. You are forgiving and good, O Lord, abounding in love to all who call to you. Hear my prayer, O Lord; listen to my cry for mercy. In the day of my trouble I will call to you, for you will answer me. Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord; no deeds can compare with yours. All the nations you have made will come and worship before you, O Lord; they will bring glory to your name. For you are great and do marvelous deeds; you alone are God. Teach me your way, O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever; For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave...."
"Dear Heavenly Father, please forgive me when I allow my emotions to get the best of me. Please continue to remind me to have an "Attitude of Gratitude" and when I'm feeling low lead to me turn on the praise and worship music. And precious Lord for my sisters in Christ who struggle with being "Drama Mommas" get the praise flowing in their hearts as well. In Jesus precious name I pray." AMEN!