Well this has been my life as of late. In a previous post, The Bank Debacle (to read more click on the link), I wrote about the rage I took out on the branch manager of our bank and how my anger got the best of me. I was hoping that my anger was under control but after a few weeks have passed, I realized that just isn't so. Let me explain:
God knows all and He knew my heart was just swimming, no drowning in anger. I was angry about all the injustice I had suffered, the loss of my pets, my ruined vacation, the checks bouncing and the subsequent hold on my deposits, the lack of improvement in my daughter's behavior at school. My husband's choices, and finally my fiasco of a birthday. Nothing went as I expected.
Ladies, the only real true expectations we can have is in the Lord. God's word tells us the God is the same, yesterday, today and tomorrow (Hebrews 13:8). It tells us He will never leave us nor forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5) It tells us of God's everlasting love and promises. And when God makes a promise, He NEVER breaks it, EVER!
It's not the same with people. This world is full of evil. People aren't perfect, so far from it. They will hurt you and disappoint you time and time again. The only reliable relationship we can have is with our Heavenly Father.
I've decided to put my expectations on Him. Present my requests to Him and the bibles says, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:6-7. If I can just give Him my requests, and put my expectations on my loving Father, He will never disappoint me and He will guard me with His peace. He will do the same thing for you my friend.
I'm done with visiting Hell with my anger. That's not the place I want to be. I want to be at peace with my life, and the people I care about no matter what.
“Give in to God, come to terms with him
and everything will turn out just fine.
Let him tell you what to do;
take his words to heart.
Come back to God Almighty
and he’ll rebuild your life.
Clean house of everything evil.
Relax your grip on your money
and abandon your gold-plated luxury.
God Almighty will be your treasure,
more wealth than you can imagine.
“You’ll take delight in God, the Mighty One,
and look to him joyfully, boldly.
You’ll pray to him and he’ll listen;
he’ll help you do what you’ve promised.
You’ll decide what you want and it will happen;
your life will be bathed in light.
To those who feel low you’ll say, ‘Chin up! Be brave!’
and God will save them.
Yes, even the guilty will escape,
escape through God’s grace in your life.”
I'm dedicating to giving my anger to God and not to get Mad as Hell anymore. Won't you join me?
Dear Heavenly Father, please Lord forgive me for sinning in my anger. For placing my expectations in the wrong places and on the wrong people. Help me Lord when I am feeling tempted to expect anything other than your good and perfect and pleasing will for my life. My hope is in you dear Lord and no one else. Give me the strength to get past my anger and to live in complete peace. And Loving God, for my sisters-in-Christ who live with constant unmet expectations let them turn their desires over to you. In Jesus' name I pray. AMEN.