Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Confession #60 - Lines of Time
I've just taken this huge leap of faith and left my job at the church because God has led myself and my family to a new church home. I know that God has plans for my future and I know that I will be a speaker and writer working in women's ministry. But this is still but a dream for my future, and not, as of yet, a concrete reality. Thinking about the fact that I still have a long road to walk, time of preparation and growth, in order to reach that dream and achieve that calling leaves me a little anxious to think just how old will I be when I get there? Honestly I have no idea why I feel this way but I do.
I'm probably not alone. Many of you ladies can relate. You know what it's like when you think about how much farther you have to go before you get to where you want to be. We are always striving, climbing and reaching for more. Like me, many of us are looking at how long the road ahead is.
This birthday God keeps reminding me that it doesn't matter how old I may be when I reach my goal. Abraham was very old when God first called him. Moses didn't lead the people out of Egypt until he was 80. Elizabeth had John the Baptist at an old age. Sometimes God uses people that the world defines past their prime to display His immense glory.
II Corinthians 4:16-18 says, "Therefore we do not become discouraged (utterly spiritless, exhausted, and wearied out through fear). Through our outer man is [progressively] decaying and wasting away, yet our inner self is being [progressively] renewed day after day. For our light, momentary affliction (this slight distress of the passing hour) is ever more and more abundantly preparing and producing and achieving for us an everlasting weight of glory [beyond all measure, excessively surpassing all comparisons and all calculations, a vast and transcendent glory and blessedness never to cease!]. Since we consider and look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that are visible are temporal (brief and fleeting), but the things that are invisible are deathless and everlasting." AMP
The Holy Spirit is that little voice inside my head reminding me to keep my head down and focus on the journey one step at a time. It's not so tiring that way and I will enjoy the journey ever so much more. In the meantime, even though the dear Apostle Paul reminds us that we are decaying and wasting away, I'm going to fight it with all the marvels of our modern world. With that said I'm headed to the spa for a day of rest, relaxation and pampering.
Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you granting me life and that I can celebrate this life today in particular and enjoy the blessings you have given me. Thank you that you still have a plan and purpose for this aging lady. Bring about your glory through me no matter my age or stage in life. Let me keep my eyes focused on you one step at a time Lord. And Abba Father, for the ladies like me reading this who struggle with the lines of time too, please do the same. Grant them strength and determination and make their light and momentary afflictions achieve an everlasting weight of your glory. In Jesus' name I pray. AMEN